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[03 Oct 2004|02:46am] |
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mood |
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Tiptoeing on the fine line between pride and depression I fell, screaming in the endless night. venturing on a downward sprial of pain and corruption, my heart bleeds for you. my hopes and dreams are dieing for the cause of a metal repression. Now all i see is fog and what appears to be an empty glass bottle that once contained temperary numbing of angst and moral anguish. Soon the fog clears and the hate returns full force along with the desire to be loved. or hated? The similarities are uncanny. but alas i'm left alone hideing in the shadows of the man i once was. trembling in fear of the man that i'm to be, my illfated destiny. Yet this all but gloreous demise comes with a realm of understanding. a welcoming of punishment earned and a foot forth in the right direction. and with this misery life has come full circle.
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| Finding the way |
[06 Apr 2004|04:03pm] |
I feel the constant burning
of never ending despair
the fear of that which lies ahead
a demise thats all too fair
so cold, so lifless
i watch the blood flow free
but how can i escape the torment
of a life that won't end for me
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| WHY? |
[05 May 2002|01:33pm] |
Running scared and screaming,
In the middle of the night,
Wish I were just dreaming
In Fear of the Light
I lead a life of fright
where no one ever cared
all alone in eternal night
WHY it isn't fair
Leave me lieing
drowning in my tears
can no one see me crying
from the horror of my fears
take my endless strife
i'm forced to decide
whats the purpose of my life
SUICIDE?
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| Hells Inferno |
[26 Jan 2002|11:16pm] |
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mood |
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crushed |
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music |
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Slipknot:surfaceing |
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alone in dispare
I silently await
to receive God's wrath
and accept my fait
thrown into the arms of an unloveing god
awaiting the pains of a love untrue
wondering dear jesus
WHAT THE FUCK DID I EVER DO TO YOU
to deserve the life you gave me
filled with sorrow and despair
to Die a painful death
to have nobody Care
WELL FUCK LIFE AND FUCK DEATH
I'm so fucking sick of it all
This Pain THIS TOURCHER
I MUST END IT ALL
HATE
HELL AWAITS
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| Respect |
[25 Nov 2001|12:39am] |
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mood |
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 enraged |
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music |
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System of a Down: P.L.U.C.K. |
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Respect earned and lost
while loved ones lay crying
a heart so full of borken dreams
once true love dieing
NOW MY RAGE IS BURNING
BURNING THROUGH YOUR HYPOCRICY
living your ideals
forged through false philosophy
Real Men NEVER hit Girls
what you'd often teach
a lesson i live my life by
but you don't practice what you preach
When you thought she'd leave you
you often threatened suicide
but now you hurt some one i love
you'll be a victim of my homicide
i hope you die
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| WE THE PEOPLE...............(song) |
[11 Nov 2001|11:07pm] |
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mood |
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 artistic |
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music |
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none |
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Shatterd people with your lies
coated wars with genocide
Renagades with free are lives
We the People will survive
We the people (8x's)
WE...THE....PEE....PLE (3x's)
Ignoreing all our torcherd cries
Fill's the streets with suicides
Fight the power till it dies
We the People will Survive
We the people (8x's)
WE...THE....PEE....PLE (3x's)
We the people will survive
the vauge attempts to end our lives
THE HATE, THE PAIN
Revenge alone will pave the way
stop MARTIAL LAW
from legalizeing homicide
WE THE PEOPLE WILL SURVIVE
WE...THE...PEE...PLE (7x's)
WILL...SUR...VI...IVE
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| A Prelude to maddness... |
[08 Nov 2001|03:14pm] |
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mood |
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 crazy |
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music |
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Opeth:blackwater park |
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Some say i have the build of a serial killer. Good sense of humor with a bright personality, yet with the hidden dark side in which nobody can understand. The lost childhood, the constant torment i live everyday. I can make you forget your trobles while i ignore mine. I ignore my problems untill they become too much for me to bear. Then i'm bitter and blood-thirsty. But you don't relize this becuase your too busy dumping all of your problems and worries on me. Thats when i loose it. Your selfishness makes me sick to the point of no return. The only way i can feel better is if i remove you from my life........from this world.
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| FOR YOU |
[16 Oct 2001|11:16pm] |
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mood |
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 anxious |
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music |
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Slipknot: People=Shit |
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my undying love
my enless rage
my evergrowing faith
my ongoing pain
my all for you
my hope
my light
my fear
my life
my all for you
my hate
my protest
my happiness
my death
i Gave my all to you
for what i'm nothing
you took all i ever had i'm nothing
FOR YOU I'M NOTHING
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| Trust? |
[14 Oct 2001|11:18pm] |
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mood |
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annoyed |
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music |
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American Head Charge: Never Get Cuaght |
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trust in me for i will help you
cut the wound from wich you bleed
trust in me for i will screw you
out of everything you need
trust in me for i am worthless
when you need me you know i'll leave
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| Suicide |
[14 Oct 2001|12:39am] |
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mood |
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music |
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Orgy: Dizzy |
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worthless lieing, basterd, prick,
ruining everything you kiss,
stupid whore, worthless fuck,
get away i've had enough
i try to hard to hide the pain
so fuck it all i'll die in vain
it doesn't even matter anymore
to live a pointless life i hate
with every fight i'm more irrate
i can't still hold this pain inside
release it all with suicide
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| Darkness Creeping |
[13 Oct 2001|01:07am] |
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mood |
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 apathetic |
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music |
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Mudvayne: Prod |
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Dark eyes glareing
hideing from the light
can you see the fire burning
lighting up the night
for death unvails its plan for you
your soul destined for cinder
quickly finds your faith renewed
to aviod the evil hinders
RUN FAST, RUN HARD, Escape your fate
till death is nowhere near
you tell yourself its not to late
to silence your inner fear
you trip and fall into a crate
and see your beloved weeping
you know no man can change is fate
Or escape the Darkness Creeping
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| the end of origianlity |
[11 Oct 2001|01:22am] |
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mood |
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poetic |
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music |
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SLipknot: Gently |
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A simple man locked in a world of hate
Rage and torment killed his pride
Destroyed by pain his unholy fate
Death Controled by Suicide
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